My tears came at 5am as I was up restless and decided to put on the TV as a distraction. It was not the kind of distraction I expected.
I watched an interview with 17 year old Tanner Coon, one of the many that was in the theater when the shooting happened. He was with a friend and the friend’s 10-year-old brother when the shooter came in and said he told them to “get down” when he heard the gunshots. The shooter fired off about 20 rounds and there was then a pause and a “period of quietness when everybody started running out,” Coon said. “I slipped on some blood and landed on a lady. I shook her and said, ‘We need to go.’ There was no response, so I presumed she was dead,” Tanner said.
There are many similar eyewitness accounts from Mothers, Fathers, Friends, the age range of victims is months old to mid 40′s… this could be me, you, our children. In a place that we would never suspect danger… seeing a movie… having fun.
I was pregnant when 9/11 happened and literally that day had a CVS exam so was confined to bed for a couple of days where I was bombarded by the news and could not help but think ‘what kind of world will my child grow up in?’
My son is 10 now. In a world of media overload he knows when things like this massacre happen. He knows there are crazy people, violent crimes, child molesters and learned early to be careful of ‘tricky people.’ He knows what happened on 9/11. He often tells me ‘you’re such a worrier Mom!’ and I know he is probably right. Maybe it is because from the time he was in my womb until now I have watched the news and the reality of the dark side of our world.
Of course I know there is the sunny side which most days I see. But today I feel covered by the cloud of the horrible things that can happen to anyone at anytime like the nightmare of the Aurora Theatre Shooting and I just can’t stop crying.
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